On October 15th, 2010 (which is also Baby Loss Awareness Day) I will officially be 39 weeks. This means that my Dr can induce labor. So we are hereby requested to report to the hospital by 8am this Friday. I'm feeling a mixed bag of emotions. I'm obviously nervous about the labor and delivery, regardless if this is my 4th delivery. I also HATE needles, especially IVs so I've never had an epidural. But I am anxious to hear, see, smell and touch my baby boy.
I'm also worried that I will be flooded with emotions and memories from my last hospital stay with Willow. I'm trying to stay positive and be strong. Although I will be bringing a new life into this world, I will be saying a prayer for Willow and all the other parents who have lost a child. I hope you will do the same thing.
Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
11 Days
Went to work today and surprised my coworkers. But if I hear "You're still heeeere!" one more time, I swear I might lose it.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
12 Days... Eviction Notice Served
Dear Baby, You are hereby notified, that your tenancy is hereby terminated as of October 10, 2010. You are hereby requested to quit, vacate, and deliver therefore to the undersigned on or before October 10, 2010.
This notice to vacate is due to your following breach of tenancy:
...Damage beyond normal wear and tear to property.
This notice to vacate is due to your following breach of tenancy:
...Damage beyond normal wear and tear to property.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
13 Days
Tomorrow is 10/10/10. Will have to try some things to induce labor naturally, although I really don't believe in that. I strongly feel the baby will come when he is ready. Despite my desire to be on the local news for delivering a baby on 10/10/10!
Friday, October 8, 2010
14 Days
I can't believe I'm at the 2 week mark. I never expected that I would deliver Baby Boy more than 1 week before my due date, but knowing that I am 4cm dilated has changed my mind (and tested my patience). So as I wait for some strong, steady contractions or spring a leak I have to keep busy. But I'm sick of cleaning my house, folding baby clothes and watching boring t.v. I need some ideas on how to keep my mind off of delivering a baby.
... And we have to finalize Baby Boy's legal name!
... And we have to finalize Baby Boy's legal name!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
15 Days
I'm pretty proud of myself for blogging daily, but I have no news to report. Still no contractions. Tonight I went for a walk with Olivia and we'll see if that starts anything. It's probably best if I don't start labor for a couple of days since my entire family is sick. Both kids went to the Dr today for what I thought was a bad cough. However, both were diagnosed with an ear infection. What do I know? Hubby is ill too and can't have his flu shot for another couple of weeks. I have this sneaking suspicion that now that I don't want to go into labor, it's inevitable.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
16 Days
Another uneventful day. No contractions. Had dinner out with the family and just tried to relax. I hope something happens soon, I'm tired of trying to keep up with shaving my legs. I want to be presentable when I actually go into labor.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
17 Days
I went back to work today. It was a little disappointing to have to return to work and not be in the hospital with my brand new baby boy. I have to remind myself, I'm only 37 weeks. I didn't even think I would go before 39. I had a lot of surprised looks and answered a lot of questions about why I was there. But I did receive a nice surprise. The other Merchandise Specialists in my Division planned a lunch in my honor. There were yummy tacos and delicious mint brownies (a little too delicious) all for me... Well, I shared of course. They also presented me with a gift card to my favorite spa, Neroli. So I guess I'm glad I made it at least one more day.
I feel exhausted, even though I had a full 8 hours sleep. I have a tension headache, most likely from stress. I can feel a ton of pressure in my pelvis, especially when I walk. I know he must be coming soon!
4cm dilate
50% effaced
-2 Station
Cervix is soft
I feel exhausted, even though I had a full 8 hours sleep. I have a tension headache, most likely from stress. I can feel a ton of pressure in my pelvis, especially when I walk. I know he must be coming soon!
4cm dilate
50% effaced
-2 Station
Cervix is soft
Monday, October 4, 2010
18 Days... and so much more
Today started like any other. I had a scheduled appointment with my Dr. Since Will had to be in court (for work), I had to take Olivia with me. Some contractions were picked up on the Non-Stress Test and my Dr confirmed I was dilated 4cm! So she wanted me to report to L&D within an hour. So I went, thinking she knew something I didn't. I had felt uncomfortable all morning and had increased pressure in my pelvis, so I went home to pack my bag. The very bag I've been nagging Will to help me pack for at least 2 weeks.
I called my mom to pick up Olivia since I only live 5 minutes from the hospital. I called Will and explained that I needed to go to the hospital. I packed my bag and Olivia's and waited... and waited... and waited. I wondered what was taking Will so long. Then I received a call from him asking where was I. He went straight to the hospital... without me! Ugh!
After monitoring contractions and Baby Boy's heartbeat, walking the halls, more monitoring, it was determined that my contractions were not strong enough. They were also inconsistent. So I was sent home. It's a little disappointing, but I also wanted to yell at the nurse, "I didn't ask to be here!" It's just a reminder why I want to wait until my contractions are 5 minutes apart before I head to the hospital. So there is no misunderstanding that I AM in labor!
While walking the halls Will and I passed by a door with a picture taped to it. There was no denying what that picture stood for. It has been less than a year since we were behind a door with the same picture of a fallen leaf with a single teardrop, taped to our door. The image is used to communicate to staff that the woman behind the door has lost her baby. Maybe she came to the hospital knowing she would be induced so she can deliver her dead baby. Maybe she was full term, in labor and had expected to deliver a live baby that she would hold and cuddle. The mere sight of that image brought back so many memories for Will and I. We felt fearful, but hopeful about our baby's pending birth, but much sadness for that woman behind the door. We wished we could comfort her, but obviously we were helpless except for a prayer that the baby -loss mom behind the door would feel hope once again, also.
I called my mom to pick up Olivia since I only live 5 minutes from the hospital. I called Will and explained that I needed to go to the hospital. I packed my bag and Olivia's and waited... and waited... and waited. I wondered what was taking Will so long. Then I received a call from him asking where was I. He went straight to the hospital... without me! Ugh!
After monitoring contractions and Baby Boy's heartbeat, walking the halls, more monitoring, it was determined that my contractions were not strong enough. They were also inconsistent. So I was sent home. It's a little disappointing, but I also wanted to yell at the nurse, "I didn't ask to be here!" It's just a reminder why I want to wait until my contractions are 5 minutes apart before I head to the hospital. So there is no misunderstanding that I AM in labor!
While walking the halls Will and I passed by a door with a picture taped to it. There was no denying what that picture stood for. It has been less than a year since we were behind a door with the same picture of a fallen leaf with a single teardrop, taped to our door. The image is used to communicate to staff that the woman behind the door has lost her baby. Maybe she came to the hospital knowing she would be induced so she can deliver her dead baby. Maybe she was full term, in labor and had expected to deliver a live baby that she would hold and cuddle. The mere sight of that image brought back so many memories for Will and I. We felt fearful, but hopeful about our baby's pending birth, but much sadness for that woman behind the door. We wished we could comfort her, but obviously we were helpless except for a prayer that the baby -loss mom behind the door would feel hope once again, also.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
19 Days
My plan is to blog daily as Baby Boy's pending arrival draws closer. Since this is definitely my last pregnancy, I want to remember these last days (weeks?) until I hold my bundle of joy in my arms. I don't expect these posts to be very long or eventful, for that matter. But here I go!
19 Days until my due date. I feel fine. I've been sleeping pretty well at night, except for 1-2 trips to the bathroom. Overall, I cannot complain! I'm anxious about when or where I may go into labor. I know the chances of my water breaking at work (or in public) are slim, but just the thought of it scares me. Except for my Dr confirming dilation of 3cm, I haven't had any signs of labor yet.
19 Days until my due date. I feel fine. I've been sleeping pretty well at night, except for 1-2 trips to the bathroom. Overall, I cannot complain! I'm anxious about when or where I may go into labor. I know the chances of my water breaking at work (or in public) are slim, but just the thought of it scares me. Except for my Dr confirming dilation of 3cm, I haven't had any signs of labor yet.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
40 Days
My pregnancy ticker is reminding me I have a mere 40 days to go! Can you imagine? It seems like I have been pregnant forever... or at least a year. If you read my previous post this pregnancy combined with my previous pregnancy (RIP Willow) equals a total of 55 weeks of pregnancy, minus a 7 week hiatus. People ask me if I'm ready for it to be over, and I joke back that I can't wait! But truth be told, as much as I want to hold my baby boy in my arms, I'm not sure if I am ready for my pregnancy to end.
Weeks ago when my back/ hip/ leg pain was at it's worst I probably was ready for it all to be over with. But with every kick, jab or squirm I feel I feel a bit of sadness knowing that it's all about to come to an end. Since this is my last pregnancy I want to cherish the last 40 days of this pregnancy, which comes with lots of pros.
For 40 days I can wear elastic-waist maternity pants (which I absolutely dreaded in the beginning), I can be proud of my protruding belly, and my penguin-esque waddle. I can eat whatever I want, whether it's an extra helping of mashed potatoes or a piece of chocolate cake. And best of all I have a loving husband and caring son that dote on me and help out without complaint. Not to mention all the chores I get out of doing right now.
However, Baby Boy will need to meet the rest of the world very soon now. I can't wait to meet him and Olivia is absolutely anxious about his pending arrival.
Weeks ago when my back/ hip/ leg pain was at it's worst I probably was ready for it all to be over with. But with every kick, jab or squirm I feel I feel a bit of sadness knowing that it's all about to come to an end. Since this is my last pregnancy I want to cherish the last 40 days of this pregnancy, which comes with lots of pros.
For 40 days I can wear elastic-waist maternity pants (which I absolutely dreaded in the beginning), I can be proud of my protruding belly, and my penguin-esque waddle. I can eat whatever I want, whether it's an extra helping of mashed potatoes or a piece of chocolate cake. And best of all I have a loving husband and caring son that dote on me and help out without complaint. Not to mention all the chores I get out of doing right now.
However, Baby Boy will need to meet the rest of the world very soon now. I can't wait to meet him and Olivia is absolutely anxious about his pending arrival.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Follow
I want to remind everyone of the "Follow" gadget on my page. This will allow you to get updates from my blog. This will be especially handy when the baby decides to arrive... you can be one of the first to know.
I know a lot of my readers may venture here from other websites, including www.facesofloss.com. I know how hard it can be read about another mom's pregnancy journey after suffering a loss. Believe me, I've been there. But as a mother who has lost a baby, I could use the support of my fellow baby loss mamas. As I approach my due date, I still feel scared, unsure and anxious. And carrying this baby does not make me miss Willow Rose any less. I often cry for her because I miss her terribly.
And as always, comments are always welcome.
I know a lot of my readers may venture here from other websites, including www.facesofloss.com. I know how hard it can be read about another mom's pregnancy journey after suffering a loss. Believe me, I've been there. But as a mother who has lost a baby, I could use the support of my fellow baby loss mamas. As I approach my due date, I still feel scared, unsure and anxious. And carrying this baby does not make me miss Willow Rose any less. I often cry for her because I miss her terribly.
And as always, comments are always welcome.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
You Do the Math
I've been thinking about how long this pregnancy has seemed to carry on. Which brought me the beginning of this journey. When I found out I was pregnant (surprise!) only 7 weeks after I lost Willow, I vowed that I would not waste my energy worrying. Of course that was easier said than done. When I managed to approach my 2nd trimester without a mental breakdown I was quite proud of myself. But I felt I was slowly losing hope when I lingered around the 21 week mark, when I lost Willow. With God's strength and my husband's support I made it to 30 weeks!
Now that I'm nearing the end of what will be my last pregnancy I have a mixed bag of emotions. I still won't feel safe until this baby has arrived safely from my womb and I am holding him in my arms. And who am I kidding, even then I will worry! I also feel sadness that this will be my last pregnancy. The last time I get to feel baby ninja kicks in my ribs. The last time I get to eat ice cream without feeling guilty. But I'm also anxiously anticipating the arrival of this baby boy just to have some relief from this terrible back pain. The pain associated with this pregnancy has made it one of the worst pregnancies I've experienced (except for losing Willow of course). I thought I was so lucky when I didn't experience nausea for the first time out of all my pregnancies. What I wouldn't give for some vomiting if it meant I could actually walk without pain again. But as I sit here and feel a little sorry for myself (as my husband cooks his 7th meal straight, along with a special dish for me to take to work tomorrow) I remind myself that this is no normal pregnancy. I almost feel as if I've been pregnant for a lifetime. So I did some math.
30 weeks pregnant, currently
7 weeks between this pregnancy and when I lost Willow
21.5 weeks pregnant when I lost Willow...
So I've almost been pregnant a total of 50 weeks, which is a little over a year. No wonder why I'm a little miserable. I plan to breastfeed a minimum of 6 months which also means I haven't had a drink in a little over an eternity! Just some food for thought.
Now that I'm nearing the end of what will be my last pregnancy I have a mixed bag of emotions. I still won't feel safe until this baby has arrived safely from my womb and I am holding him in my arms. And who am I kidding, even then I will worry! I also feel sadness that this will be my last pregnancy. The last time I get to feel baby ninja kicks in my ribs. The last time I get to eat ice cream without feeling guilty. But I'm also anxiously anticipating the arrival of this baby boy just to have some relief from this terrible back pain. The pain associated with this pregnancy has made it one of the worst pregnancies I've experienced (except for losing Willow of course). I thought I was so lucky when I didn't experience nausea for the first time out of all my pregnancies. What I wouldn't give for some vomiting if it meant I could actually walk without pain again. But as I sit here and feel a little sorry for myself (as my husband cooks his 7th meal straight, along with a special dish for me to take to work tomorrow) I remind myself that this is no normal pregnancy. I almost feel as if I've been pregnant for a lifetime. So I did some math.
30 weeks pregnant, currently
7 weeks between this pregnancy and when I lost Willow
21.5 weeks pregnant when I lost Willow...
So I've almost been pregnant a total of 50 weeks, which is a little over a year. No wonder why I'm a little miserable. I plan to breastfeed a minimum of 6 months which also means I haven't had a drink in a little over an eternity! Just some food for thought.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Pain Pain Go Away
I've come to realize the pain I'm feeling is a little more serious than I cared to admit. It's time I stopped denying it and did something about it, although it may be too late.
Early in my pregnancy I realized I didn't have the right to complain about pregnancy symptoms. A baby loss mother expressed her opinion that those who are able to conceive don't have anything to complain about. As if I should be happy enough that I was able to produce another pregnancy (regardless of the outcome of my previous pregnancy or the struggles I went through to get pregnant in the first place.) Nothing else should matter.
This statement has been embedded in my brain. When people asked in passing how I was doing I would simply smile and say fine. I was pregnant again! Without help from fertility meds, without timing intercourse down to the day... hour... minute. I was pregnant even though my last baby had died inside of me. That was enough for rejoice right? No need to mention the nausea, the headaches, the back pain, the constant nagging fear that my baby could be taken again. Without so much as a warning; a cramp or a bleed. No need to mention the lack of sleep because nightmares of demons sweeping my baby away. The inability to wipe without inspecting the tissue for blood. Who cared about all of that. I was pregnant and I should shut up and be thankful for what God has given me (even if it is only temporary.)
Recently I realized I shouldn't have to suffer. I shouldn't feel bad that I was able to conceive (and so quickly, without trying) after Willow died. I shouldn't carry the burden of guilt for all those women who suffered a loss, or were never able to conceive in the first place.
Guess what? My back hurts. The pain is tremendous. Radiating down my right buttock into my leg. I walk with a limp. Kind of like a waddling duck with a limp. 2 months of chiropractic care couldn't help. Dr.s shrugged their shoulders and spoke highly of post-pregnancy care or surgery. I recently visited a highly recommended physical therapist. She was clearly upset when she explained that she could not help me. Possibly a re-injured herniated disc caused by pressure or movement from my pelvis. My only option is "pain management". They seem to think Vicodin is safe during pregnancy. And a "Wheelchair is not such a bad idea" or "Bed rest." This scares me. So I take Tylenol, attempt to do my therapeutic exercises and try to smile and keep my mouth shut. No need to complain that it takes me minutes to roll out of bed, just to use the bathroom. Nobody wants to hear about my husband helping me put my pants on or that I can't take my daughter to the park or walk my dog. I will just suffer in silence and pray to God that the moment I deliver my healthy, baby boy this pain leaves me along with the placenta.
Early in my pregnancy I realized I didn't have the right to complain about pregnancy symptoms. A baby loss mother expressed her opinion that those who are able to conceive don't have anything to complain about. As if I should be happy enough that I was able to produce another pregnancy (regardless of the outcome of my previous pregnancy or the struggles I went through to get pregnant in the first place.) Nothing else should matter.
This statement has been embedded in my brain. When people asked in passing how I was doing I would simply smile and say fine. I was pregnant again! Without help from fertility meds, without timing intercourse down to the day... hour... minute. I was pregnant even though my last baby had died inside of me. That was enough for rejoice right? No need to mention the nausea, the headaches, the back pain, the constant nagging fear that my baby could be taken again. Without so much as a warning; a cramp or a bleed. No need to mention the lack of sleep because nightmares of demons sweeping my baby away. The inability to wipe without inspecting the tissue for blood. Who cared about all of that. I was pregnant and I should shut up and be thankful for what God has given me (even if it is only temporary.)
Recently I realized I shouldn't have to suffer. I shouldn't feel bad that I was able to conceive (and so quickly, without trying) after Willow died. I shouldn't carry the burden of guilt for all those women who suffered a loss, or were never able to conceive in the first place.
Guess what? My back hurts. The pain is tremendous. Radiating down my right buttock into my leg. I walk with a limp. Kind of like a waddling duck with a limp. 2 months of chiropractic care couldn't help. Dr.s shrugged their shoulders and spoke highly of post-pregnancy care or surgery. I recently visited a highly recommended physical therapist. She was clearly upset when she explained that she could not help me. Possibly a re-injured herniated disc caused by pressure or movement from my pelvis. My only option is "pain management". They seem to think Vicodin is safe during pregnancy. And a "Wheelchair is not such a bad idea" or "Bed rest." This scares me. So I take Tylenol, attempt to do my therapeutic exercises and try to smile and keep my mouth shut. No need to complain that it takes me minutes to roll out of bed, just to use the bathroom. Nobody wants to hear about my husband helping me put my pants on or that I can't take my daughter to the park or walk my dog. I will just suffer in silence and pray to God that the moment I deliver my healthy, baby boy this pain leaves me along with the placenta.
Friday, June 25, 2010
23 Week Quiz
As I approach 6 months (and my third trimester) I thought I would do another quiz. So here I go.
How far along: 23 weeks today (my ticker reminds me that the baby is now the size of a papaya).
Who knows: Everyone! I'm actually surprised when people say they had no idea. It's kind of obvious.
Symptoms: Just back pain... Well I shouldn't say "Just"!
Total weight gain: I don't ask, they don't tell!
Maternity clothes: Yeah, pretty much everything.
Stretch marks: Nothing new!
Sleep: As I approach my third trimester I've noticed the sleepiness creeping back. I also toss and turn due to the back pain and having to pee twice a night doesn't help. I like to think of it as practice to prepare my body for whats to come!
Best moment last week: Will felt the baby move for the first time! I went in to work a little later that day and we just laid in the bed talking. Then the little one started kicking like crazy! It's such a great milestone and it doesn't get old, even for my fourth pregnancy!
Movement: Lots! Everyday. Dr says this is because my placenta is on my back wall.
Food cravings: Varies from day to day.
Belly Button in or out: IN!
What I miss: Zumba! I loved to workout @ the Y, but the Dr hasn't cleared me for any type of exercise. I have been considering an Aqua Zumba class though.
What I am looking forward to: Next week's growth scan. To see how much weight this baby has gained. Although I'm not looking forward to ALL the Dr appointments. Between my regular OB and the Fetal Maternal Dr, I'm going to be at the Dr's office twice as much.
Milestones: We got to found out the sex last month.
How is daddy? Will is very overprotective. He wouldn't even allow me to bowl. He finally admitted that we already lost one baby, he's afraid to lose another. It's kind of sweet.
How far along: 23 weeks today (my ticker reminds me that the baby is now the size of a papaya).
Who knows: Everyone! I'm actually surprised when people say they had no idea. It's kind of obvious.
Symptoms: Just back pain... Well I shouldn't say "Just"!
Total weight gain: I don't ask, they don't tell!
Maternity clothes: Yeah, pretty much everything.
Stretch marks: Nothing new!
Sleep: As I approach my third trimester I've noticed the sleepiness creeping back. I also toss and turn due to the back pain and having to pee twice a night doesn't help. I like to think of it as practice to prepare my body for whats to come!
Best moment last week: Will felt the baby move for the first time! I went in to work a little later that day and we just laid in the bed talking. Then the little one started kicking like crazy! It's such a great milestone and it doesn't get old, even for my fourth pregnancy!
Movement: Lots! Everyday. Dr says this is because my placenta is on my back wall.
Food cravings: Varies from day to day.
Belly Button in or out: IN!
What I miss: Zumba! I loved to workout @ the Y, but the Dr hasn't cleared me for any type of exercise. I have been considering an Aqua Zumba class though.
What I am looking forward to: Next week's growth scan. To see how much weight this baby has gained. Although I'm not looking forward to ALL the Dr appointments. Between my regular OB and the Fetal Maternal Dr, I'm going to be at the Dr's office twice as much.
Milestones: We got to found out the sex last month.
How is daddy? Will is very overprotective. He wouldn't even allow me to bowl. He finally admitted that we already lost one baby, he's afraid to lose another. It's kind of sweet.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Diego
Diego is the new man in my life. Actually he's been around for awhile, but I have just realized how important he is to me. He never judges me. He keeps me warm at night. And he's sensitive to my needs!
Obviously, Will is jealous of my relationship with Diego. And I have to admit, it's a bit awkward with Diego sleeping between me and Will every night. Protecting me like the border patrol.
If you haven't figured it out yet, Diego is my maternity pillow. He has tried his best to keep me comfortable through the night. I don't know how I would sleep without him! I love him so much I decided to name him after all of these years. I had Diego since I was pregnant with Olivia, but didn't realize his worth until my pregnancy back pain made sleeping impossible.
As much as I adore Diego, I do miss cuddling with my hubby before drifting off to sleep. This is impossible now because of my fluffy barrier. A couple times per night while rolling over, with my pillow tucked snugly between my legs, I've smacked Will in the face. However, Will tolerates Diego regardless of his hatred for him. Besides, he knows better than to mess with a pregnant woman!
We are going to the Dells this weekend and you better believe Diego will be coming along!
Obviously, Will is jealous of my relationship with Diego. And I have to admit, it's a bit awkward with Diego sleeping between me and Will every night. Protecting me like the border patrol.
If you haven't figured it out yet, Diego is my maternity pillow. He has tried his best to keep me comfortable through the night. I don't know how I would sleep without him! I love him so much I decided to name him after all of these years. I had Diego since I was pregnant with Olivia, but didn't realize his worth until my pregnancy back pain made sleeping impossible.
As much as I adore Diego, I do miss cuddling with my hubby before drifting off to sleep. This is impossible now because of my fluffy barrier. A couple times per night while rolling over, with my pillow tucked snugly between my legs, I've smacked Will in the face. However, Will tolerates Diego regardless of his hatred for him. Besides, he knows better than to mess with a pregnant woman!
We are going to the Dells this weekend and you better believe Diego will be coming along!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Happy Mother's Day
I thought this would be the day that I would celebrate being a Mom to my three beautiful children. But one is missing and now I'm pregnant with my fourth. It's only been five months, three weeks and five days since we said goodbye to Willow. We knew we wanted to try again to have a baby, but we didn't know when or how (considering my battles with infertility). We never thought that within two months I would be pregnant again. Without trying, without fertility meds, without even thinking about it. We are very excited, optimistic and full of hope. But losing Willow is always going to be on our minds. Even though another baby is coming and Willow won't be here, she will always be with us. So this Mother's Day I will be celebrating with my wonderful husband and my 4 beautiful children; Terrell, Olivia, Willow and "Pumpkin".
Monday, April 26, 2010
14 Week Quiz
How far along: 14 weeks today
Who knows: Everyone! Even Lili knows she's going to be a BIG sister.
Symptoms: Nada.
Total weight gain: I think I lost weight even though I haven't had any nausea. There's just something about being pregnant that makes me eat healthier.
Maternity clothes: Yes. It's much more comfortable.
Stretch marks: Nothing new!
Sleep: Still tired, but I've regained some of my energy. However, due to my back pain I have a hard time getting comfy at night... even with my pregnancy pillow.
Best moment last week: Nothing baby-related, but we moved Olivia into the bigger room and she's sleeping in her big girl bed. Will moved the crib in there too in case we have a baby girl on the way (then they will share a room). We will have to wait and see though.
Movement: Sometimes I think I can feel something. Or maybe I'm nuts.
Food cravings: Strawberries w/ Nutella and steak!
Belly Button in or out: IN!
What I miss: Cappuccino and Coke (I'm trying to not drink any caffeine)
What I am looking forward to: The anatomy scan June 4th!
Milestones: Can't wait to hear the baby's heartbeat again next week.
How is daddy? He is busy turning down every baby name I come up with. For some reason we only debate about girl's names. I don't know what that means though.
Who knows: Everyone! Even Lili knows she's going to be a BIG sister.
Symptoms: Nada.
Total weight gain: I think I lost weight even though I haven't had any nausea. There's just something about being pregnant that makes me eat healthier.
Maternity clothes: Yes. It's much more comfortable.
Stretch marks: Nothing new!
Sleep: Still tired, but I've regained some of my energy. However, due to my back pain I have a hard time getting comfy at night... even with my pregnancy pillow.
Best moment last week: Nothing baby-related, but we moved Olivia into the bigger room and she's sleeping in her big girl bed. Will moved the crib in there too in case we have a baby girl on the way (then they will share a room). We will have to wait and see though.
Movement: Sometimes I think I can feel something. Or maybe I'm nuts.
Food cravings: Strawberries w/ Nutella and steak!
Belly Button in or out: IN!
What I miss: Cappuccino and Coke (I'm trying to not drink any caffeine)
What I am looking forward to: The anatomy scan June 4th!
Milestones: Can't wait to hear the baby's heartbeat again next week.
How is daddy? He is busy turning down every baby name I come up with. For some reason we only debate about girl's names. I don't know what that means though.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Pregnancy Quiz
I feel like I have to guard myself in case the worst happens, but on the other hand I don't want to remember my pregnancy as being a miserable and stressful 9 months. I have to remind myself (sometimes several times a day) "Worrying will not change the outcome". I religiously check the toilet paper for blood each time I wipe. I panic with every twinge of pain. I can't even tell you the last time my hubby and I have done the deed, for fear it will cause a miscarriage (poor hubby). I know it's silly, but I just lost a baby a few months ago! The pain is still fresh in my mind. I pray to God everyday that he will not allow that to ever happen to me again!
I feel like I am testing my luck by getting so excited about this baby growing inside of me, but I saw this quiz on another blog so I wanted to give it a try.
How far along: 7 weeks today
Who knows: You do! We haven't made an official announcement, but we plan to after next week's ultrasound. My mom and BFF know and a few of my ex coworkers. I'm not very good at secrets.
Symptoms: Nausea (more so when I allow myself to get hungry) and headaches. The same symptoms as my previous pregnancies sans the tender/ sore breasts.
Total weight gain: I haven't weighed myself and I don't want to right now since I didn't lose all the weight from my previous pregnancy!
Maternity clothes: I'm not wearing any maternity clothes yet, but I did buy some shirts recently from Old Navy.
Stretch marks: Nothing new!
Sleep: By 9 o'clock I can barely keep my eyes open, but my previous 2 pregnancies I was much more tired. I'm wondering if it just hasn't hit yet.
Best moment last week: I don't think there was any. I started a new position at work, so I have lots of training classes, applications to learn and coworkers to get to know. My grandma passed away and my friend had brain surgery. But if I had to pick something, I would say Olivia deciding (for herself) that she will go on the potty now. All the candy, stickers and bribes didn't work. She just started going on the toilet and has been going since Wednesday. Ha!
Movement: The baby is the size of a blueberry, but I have those feelings like a butterfly is tickling my insides.
Food cravings: Varies, but I've been thinking about fresh fruit lately!
Belly Button in or out: IN!
What I miss: Cappuccino and Coke (I'm trying to not drink any caffeine)
What I am looking forward to: My ultrasound March 11th!
Milestones: Hoping to hear the heartbeat next week.
How is daddy? He is so excited about the baby and is looking forward to the ultrasound next week. Although he is usually guarded and doesn't allow himself to get too excited about things, I can tell he is hopeful that this pregnancy will go as planned. He's already planning and figuring things out.
I feel like I am testing my luck by getting so excited about this baby growing inside of me, but I saw this quiz on another blog so I wanted to give it a try.
How far along: 7 weeks today
Who knows: You do! We haven't made an official announcement, but we plan to after next week's ultrasound. My mom and BFF know and a few of my ex coworkers. I'm not very good at secrets.
Symptoms: Nausea (more so when I allow myself to get hungry) and headaches. The same symptoms as my previous pregnancies sans the tender/ sore breasts.
Total weight gain: I haven't weighed myself and I don't want to right now since I didn't lose all the weight from my previous pregnancy!
Maternity clothes: I'm not wearing any maternity clothes yet, but I did buy some shirts recently from Old Navy.
Stretch marks: Nothing new!
Sleep: By 9 o'clock I can barely keep my eyes open, but my previous 2 pregnancies I was much more tired. I'm wondering if it just hasn't hit yet.
Best moment last week: I don't think there was any. I started a new position at work, so I have lots of training classes, applications to learn and coworkers to get to know. My grandma passed away and my friend had brain surgery. But if I had to pick something, I would say Olivia deciding (for herself) that she will go on the potty now. All the candy, stickers and bribes didn't work. She just started going on the toilet and has been going since Wednesday. Ha!
Movement: The baby is the size of a blueberry, but I have those feelings like a butterfly is tickling my insides.
Food cravings: Varies, but I've been thinking about fresh fruit lately!
Belly Button in or out: IN!
What I miss: Cappuccino and Coke (I'm trying to not drink any caffeine)
What I am looking forward to: My ultrasound March 11th!
Milestones: Hoping to hear the heartbeat next week.
How is daddy? He is so excited about the baby and is looking forward to the ultrasound next week. Although he is usually guarded and doesn't allow himself to get too excited about things, I can tell he is hopeful that this pregnancy will go as planned. He's already planning and figuring things out.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Abuela's Gift
My Abuela died in her home in Puerto Rico on Monday, February 15th. I didn't receive the news until Tuesday, the day my pregnancy was confirmed by Dr. H. She was 99, so it wasn't a complete shock. I can't help but think of the Circle of Life (can't you just hear the Lion King song now).
Since my initial visit to the RE my Beta numbers have increased nicely. However my third blood draw indicated that my progesterone had dipped a little. My Dr considered my progesterone "borderline" and immediately put me on a progesterone supplement. Of course it must be a vaginal supplement because nothing that has to do with pregnancy can be easy for me.
Since my Dr routinely schedules only 3 Beta checks, every other day, I haven't had an opportunity to have my levels checked in over a week. As much as I HATE needles, I appreciated those updates for reassurance that everything is going well. That's why I welcomed my first bout of nausea. I know it seems crazy, but once I got that familiar nauseous feeling and slight headache I welcomed it, knowing that it meant this wasn't all in my head. This little bean inside of me is growing! And right now, we are referring to this little baby as, "Pumpkin" due to the EDD being in October. We are looking forward to our first scheduled ultrasound, Thursday March 11th!
Since my initial visit to the RE my Beta numbers have increased nicely. However my third blood draw indicated that my progesterone had dipped a little. My Dr considered my progesterone "borderline" and immediately put me on a progesterone supplement. Of course it must be a vaginal supplement because nothing that has to do with pregnancy can be easy for me.
Since my Dr routinely schedules only 3 Beta checks, every other day, I haven't had an opportunity to have my levels checked in over a week. As much as I HATE needles, I appreciated those updates for reassurance that everything is going well. That's why I welcomed my first bout of nausea. I know it seems crazy, but once I got that familiar nauseous feeling and slight headache I welcomed it, knowing that it meant this wasn't all in my head. This little bean inside of me is growing! And right now, we are referring to this little baby as, "Pumpkin" due to the EDD being in October. We are looking forward to our first scheduled ultrasound, Thursday March 11th!
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